Momentum is an amazing thing. When it is working for you, it is a powerful force. But when you have none and you are trying to get it going, it is a ton of work.
Many kids have stories of taking pennies or other coins out to the railroad to be laid on the tracks and flattened in an instant as a train rolls over them. The train loses no momentum whatsoever, and a powerfully hard material like a coin is utterly flattened in a heartbeat. But, take the same train, this time standing still with zero momentum, and put the same coin up against its front wheels – and push and strain as it might – (so I have read - Never been able to try it in person. Amtrak doesn't think it is cool for you to try it.) it cannot advance. This is the difference in having momentum and not having momentum.
I feel like I have lost all my momentum. I had it. I was rolling along! It felt so great, so alive, so much power. Now, it is as if the train of my life has been slowly climbing a mountain over the last couple of weeks and no matter how hard I push, I keep slowing down and losing momentum. With each bit of momentum I lose, it makes it all the harder to keep up speed. With each little bit of speed I lose, I lose more momentum. It is a tough circle!
I am not sure why all it has happened. I am sure that it is a compilation of several things. It was very cold and I could not bring myself to get up early and walk back and forth in the bitter cold of the early morning, in order to pray in an unheated church. I tried to pray on my own a lot at home, but there are constant distractions with a family of 5 in a small house.
I was also working very hard (still am) on a huge teaching project. I know that the longer I worked on it, the wearier I became. Additionally, I am not getting enough sleep. After the kids finally fall asleep, Heather and I watch some shows off the internet. It is far too easy to watch “just one more episode” – that often turns into “just one more” and so on.
I have reached the point where sheer effort enough is not going to cut it. I am spent. It is my fault. So, starting today I began doing what I need to do in order to get momentum going for me again. I forced myself to get up and go to pray this morning. (It was like death! My body is not used to it anymore. : ) They say it takes 28 days to form a habit and only 4 days to break it. Well, it has been more than 4 days.) I also have been trying to get a little more sleep, eat more healthily and get some more exercise.
All of which are not easy.
All of which are not easy.
Momentum rocks! You can blow through things with such little effort. Not having momentum stinks! It is so much work to try and get it back.
My suggestion – don’t lose it in the first place. : )
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